and when laid off, I just sooooooo wanted something different. Like working at home.
Gads, what a mistake.
Just like anyone sucked into a cult, I did everything I could to please. Throwing money hand over fist to “their” phone service, their advertising loops, thier web sites, their, well, you name it.
Hours and hours spent on the phone, tons of money (about $1K loan) to fly to “conferences”. Which were really nothing more than other schmucks like me following orders. Sure, the seats were filled, but that is the name of the game, isn’t it? Keep the newbies hyper and wanting the life advertised?
In reality, I truly wanted to believe in the product and sell it. Oh, silly me. What it really entailed was selling false dreams to someone else. And I could have done that if there was any true substance in the propositon.
Instead, after six months and thousands of dollars, I couldn’t stomach it anymore. Such as meeting members of my upline who left no doubt they had blatantly lied. (Honey, you are way too tall and way too big boned to have ever been a size 4, unless of course when you were 11.) Inablity to get my direct supervisor to explain how to actually sell the “cover” product and not just the biz. Rooming with a person who I finally got to admit that she’d spent EIGHTY GRAND to get to the level just above me.
And, of course, being at a conference and watching young protegees of the upline suck down a saucer full of “product pills” instead of any dinner.
for Capital One. NOOOO!!!!! Man, that SUCKS. I didn’t care when Alec Baldwin did CapOne commercials, because I don’t really like him. But Samuel is one of my favorite actors…
So I took him aside and put a smile on his face (not not that! Shame on you!).
What I told him was that I had been running and re-running the numbers for the last month because I couldn’t believe it was true, but what I found that was as off today’s paycheck IF the overtime keeps on the way they say it will between now and the end of the year, IF all the monies that are scheduled to come it do come on time and for the amounts we believe they will come in AND Johan stays away (that’s the scary part) we will be paying off a credit card every 30-45 days between now and the end of April!!! The first one, the Best Buy should die by the end of November or mid December(only 1975 to go on that one) and then others will fall in a row every 30-45 days. It is possible that we could be cc debt free by April 30! (If we don’t take a big tax hit) It’s a LOT of IF’s and dodging Jhoan, but dh has been smiling ever since.
I know it certainly made me a happy camper when I first discovered it about a month or so ago.
I did a happy dance when the CC company refunded what they’d overcharged in cc protection and something else to the tune of $381 AND, even more dramatic, my electric bill of $.67!!!
I spent the weekend resting per the Dr’s order, took my antibiotics, watched the ex collect his stuff and waved goodbye with nary a tear shed – weirdly, I felt completely neutral – I’m guessing that is a healthy response?!
I watched Monster’s University and World War Z, woke up late and went to bed early, pottered around slowly, baked up a whole pumpkin for creamy pumpkin soup and oven braised pork country-style ribs to be used for pork tacos sometime this week.
I played with the tervlets and cuddled with my pups and sheep and goats and marveled at how different I feel this year,compared to the same time last year. Emotionally and physically in a much healthier space, and next year I’ll be in better shape financially with the choices I’m making, and have been making. I’m looking forward to my birthday and don’t forget you and Gary